Why This Place Exists

Just wanted to say a few things about… why is this place existing? Why would I say "I'm done" and have this place emerge?

A bit of the background. Back in February 2025, I co-founded AInsanity and The Underground. It's been an amazing year. Full of ups but also full of downs. Unfortunately, these “downs” made me hit burnout very quickly.

Not once, but twice.

The second time different than the first.

The first time was… a surprise. I never thought I could reach that state. But that was the time when everything was too loud. Too much. Too emotional. I got angry. I lashed out. In simple words - I was a bitch. 😆

But then the second… it was a different beast. It was creeping in. I knew it was. I'd seen the signs. Yet I still decided to ignore it. But it was different this time.

It's kind of funny, you know. Back in the day, when I was in my 20s and watching “ The Vampire Diaries”, I thought how "cool" it would be to be able to switch off feelings. Well. I did exactly that. But without doing "cool vampire stuff."

I felt…and still kind of feel… blank. I could not feel joy. I could not feel sadness. The biggest emotions I could get were "slight annoyance and inconvenience" or "disappointment.". Even crying felt flat.

So that's when I made a decision to step away from Discord. I knew I couldn't bring anything positive to the community or to people. And I knew my state - with everything that was going on - would not help my current situation.

But I could still build. Funny enough, that logical part of my brain still works pretty well. Not amazing. But it works. There are ideas. Claude Code executes them so my brain doesn't get overwhelmed. And it sparks joy. Sort of… Because as soon as it hits the slightest inconvenience, my brain nukes it. Like a proper diva. "Fine." And walks away. So trying to be careful and not to be "too loud and too much" became… tiring. And contributing to my own downfall. Not mentioning that it also constantly feels this way as well.

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So What About Gatekeeping vs Charging?

I stand by what I stand for. Information should always be free. All I do is give you the information and say "here - have fun with it."

When it comes to tools - yeah, I use Claude Code. There's no lie to it. I do spend multiple hours hyperfocusing, testing, changing, writing, etc. to create them. And I do use my own tokens to do it. So yes… there might be an occasional small charge for some tools as well. Not all of them. Definitely not the ones I got inspired by others to make.

And I wanted my own space to write my own thoughts….like i do right now. To express myself and share my work without affecting others. And so people who don't feel like joining our Discord or Patreon - for whatever reason - still have access to it.

I still stand for the values I created AInsanity on back in 2025. I still won't charge people for simple ideas and guides. And most of them will be available through AInsanity and in The Underground anyway, for those who don't want another "spam subscription" in their inbox.

So stay. Or leave. The freedom of choice is yours.